Little Miss Confused

Do you ever feel like you are living between two worlds?

10:09 AM, February 24, 2008 .. 16 comments .. Link

I have this part of me that goes out in public. She is sweet and gentle. She doesn't like to anger people. Minds her manners and on the outside to anyone that meets her, looks like a little miss goody two shoes. She doesn't swear, drink or smoke. Is fiercely loyal to her husband, and by outward appearances, looks like she only has sex in the missionary position to fulfill her marriage contract. I call her the "Good girl"

Then there is this person on the inside. She wants to go out and party. She wants to go out and get drunk. She wants to get high. She wants to tell people exactly what she is thinking of them at the moment she thinks it. She wants to go out and pick up men or women she has never met and have wild sex with them. Would like nothing more then to be living in Las Vegas living the lifestyle of a high paid call girl! I call her my "bad girl"

So what part of my brain keeps me from "slipping" to the other side? What would happen if that "thing" that keeps me in the good girl mode went away?

It's funny that after all these years of being the good girl and shoving the bad girl in the back of my mind, the bad girl wants to come back out and play. How do I make the "bad girl" happy without doing anything that would get me arrested, back in rehab or divorced?

A little change in plans

7:29 AM, February 20, 2008 .. 11 comments .. Link

So last night I get home and hubby has supper started. He worked a little later then he thought he would. He goes to take a shower while I finish getting super together. Then I go take a shower. We are flirting with each other suggesting different things we would like to do in the hot tub.

Only a few minutes to go before the hockey game starts. We decide we will just cuddle on the couch and watch it. It just seemed like a lot of work to drag the TV out and hook it up by the tub.

We kept watching the game and flirting. We still had a few "games" we wanted to play in the hot tub. So we decide at the second intermission we will run out to the tub and play.

The end of the second period horn sounds, Hubby runs out to the tub and lifts the cover off. I run into the bathroom to put my hair up (trust me, long flowing hair in a hot tub might look sexy, but I almost drowned when it got sucked into the drain) I grab 2 big thick bath towels and throw on my robe. I meet hubby in the kitchen he is waiting in his robe and slippers.

We go out side.

IT IS F***ING FREEZING OUTSIDE!

It is -45F with the wind chill! We start laughing and ask each other "what the hell were we thinking!" We decide the water might be hot enough to keep us warm once we are in the hot tub, but it was just too cold and windy to take the chance that we might be froze to death when we get out and one of us had to cover the tub back up.

I could just see it. Frozen stiff on the deck wearing nothing but a bright red robe and blue fuzzy slippers! I am sure my neighbors would love to find me like that!

So we had a change of plans and watched the last period in bed. Then watched the Wild loose in overtime....

Not to worry! We consoled each other and made sure we found something to do to take our mind off the loss!

What a difference a day makes

9:13 AM, February 19, 2008 .. 20 comments .. Link

I'm not feeling as blue as I was yesterday. I slept like a rock last night so I think that made a huge difference. It was really busy at the store so I was tired when I got home.

apparently who ever made out the schedule forgot it was "Presidents Day" and the schools were closed. That means parents take the day off work to be with there little munchkins and go grocery shopping! One cashier, no baggers and a manager with a 5 pound lifting restriction makes for a busy Lisa! I had to scan, bag and do the carry outs!....damn i better get a good raise when my review comes up....Valentines day marks one year at the store!

Today should be slower...I hope!

The store manager has asked me to work the service counter and manage the front end on Fridays......boys get your minds out of the gutter.....front end manager covers the cashier's breaks and opens a lane if it gets busy, helps at the service counter and tries to keep things running smoothly at the front end of the store...not THAT front end!

I don't get any more pay for it, but it does mean more hours. So that will help on the bills.

Today hubby has a shorter day. He said he will have supper ready when I get home and the TV out by the hot tub. I plan to soak away the blues and watch the WILD kick butt on Vancouver. Another divisional rival so a win tonight will help in getting to the play offs! We are still in 3rd place in our conference...look out Dallas and Detroit....were coming to get ya! I almost need a sedative when we watch against Dallas.....I have hated that team ever since Norm Green stole them away from us....they used to be Minnesota's North Stars....there is just something wrong with Texans owning a hockey team.....do they even ice skate in Texas?

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