Little Miss Confused

Welcome to my pitty party

9:00 AM, February 18, 2008 .. 14 comments .. Link

Maybe its the weather. I am sick and tired of looking out side to see various shades of white and gray and dirt covered snow.
Maybe it's the whole job hunting thing...I am sick and tired of looking at jobs that I have no qualifications for, or finding jobs that I would be perfect for, only to be told the position is already filled.
Maybe its the whole lack of money, plenty of bills thing.

I don't know, but it is getting harder and harder every day to keep smiling.

I go to the store and put on a happy face. I smile and talk to the customers as if I don't have a worry in the world. Then I go home and cry.

Things feel like they are just in limbo. I wish I could say more about the other project I am working on. Hopefully it will be soon. We agreed on one event that will make it safe for me to let you all know what it is.....that might be part of the blues I am feeling too. I hate waiting.

I hate not knowing what the future has in store. I don't adapt to change well.
I'm feeling excited about the project I am working on...and fear at the same time. I wish I could say what it was, it would be so much easier to write about what I am feeling...hell I wish I knew what I was feeling. One minute I am happy about it, the next I am scared to death.

I keep having the same dream night after night. My husband and I are driving past our house, except it isn't our house any more. As we drive by I am asking my husband if he thinks the new owners are taking care of the pet cemetery. I point out how over grown with weeds the garden has become and worry that they are not feeding the gold fish in the pond.

That is all there is to the dream. I wake up feeling sad and like I have lost something.

I have been trying to make an appointment to get a yearly exam with my doctor. I'm about 5 years over due for it. I call the phone number listed in the phone book and listen to the annoying...press 1 if you are calling for test results, press 2 if you are standing on your head....after a few more options it gives me a website to go to for scheduling appointments.

I go to the website and after sifting thru the options........
Think you might be pregnant...........nope!
Pregnant and need to schedule routine check up....nope!
infertility questions...nope!
Starting to get pissed at the directory.....YEP!

Finally, I find a link that reads, Schedule routine exams.....BINGO!
I click it and it takes me back to the home page giving me directions to the location and a phone number to call.....same damn number I called that told me to go on line and register for an appointment!

Breath in, breath out. Breath in, breath out.

OK, I have calmed down and I am done with my pity party. Now I am going to go call the doctors office and ruin somebody else's day!

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9:25 AM, February 18, 2008 .. Posted by sarai
I'd say the dreams are about money worries, what if you loose your home, that sort of thing. ((hugs))

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9:53 AM, February 18, 2008 .. Posted by libertine
I hate those endless phone menus, especially the ones that begin, "For English, press one".

Did you ever see that one "Married With Children" episode where Al was stuck in one of these phone menus for three days and just before he was to get a real human being, he had to run to the bathroom and his daughter hung up the phone before he could get back?

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10:12 AM, February 18, 2008 .. Posted by Cam

Life can sure throw mean curve balls off & on, huh ?

It sucks...yeah...

At least your neck hasn't been SLASHED OPEN like that Zednik guy !

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10:15 AM, February 18, 2008 .. Posted by littleMissConfused
Never saw that one, but I know the feeling!
I had to call the doctor's office and had an automated voice keep telling me "invalid selection" every time I hit -0- ( I was hoping to get an operator, what do people with out computers do?). I finally went back on line to make the appointment (this time the link worked) filled out all the online forms required....only to get an e-mail telling me the office will let me know in 48 hours when my appointment will be!

I hope when I finally get an appointment I get to see a real human being! If a computer enters the room and tells me it is the doctor, I might just take a sledge hammer after it!

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10:17 AM, February 18, 2008 .. Posted by littleMissConfused
Cam: I saw that on ESPN......makes me glad I don't play hockey anymore! At least the WILD won again last night! So there is a few bright spots in life.....we are finally in 1st place in our division...I think with a 6 point lead! Another reason to be impatient for April...playoffs and spring!

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10:35 AM, February 18, 2008 .. Posted by Cam

As the Monty Python guys sang :

ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE !

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12:28 PM, February 18, 2008 .. Posted by LauriesAsylum
You might be feeling the pressure of wondering if you will meet the next months bills. They say money isn't necessary to have a rich and fulfilling life, but they are so wrong. In this day and age you need money just to survive, and if you never have any left over to have just a bit of fun, that can be depressing, I know, I've been there.

I don't know what your project is, but this statement worries me....We agreed on one event that will make it safe for me to let you all know what it is Or maybe I'm reading more into that then necessary?

I'll be praying that you come across a job soon that will enable you to have a worry free day.(((Hugs)))

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1:06 PM, February 18, 2008 .. Posted by DeeJay
I sure as heck hope something pans out soon with job hunting. My thoughts are with you.

That doc thing would drive me nuts! I hate getting stuck in those stupid phone circle things. I am glad you are going in for a check up though. : )

*hugs*

2:00 PM, February 18, 2008 .. Posted by LadyVisine
Even in our teeny little town, we have to deal with those blasted phone menus, so I opted to stop in at the clinic when I was in town one day, to set my appointment. It probably saved me a couple of hours of frustration. Those phone menus drive me crazy, too!

Hope the job market opens up for you, with a position that will be suited perfectly for just YOU and you alone. I'll keep ya in my prayers for a positive outcome. *hugs*

Hang in there

2:06 PM, February 18, 2008 .. Posted by Patty
Have you tried just waiting on the line to see what will happen? Or pressing 0 for their operator? I'm like you, I want to talk to a person, I hate those automated, calling, press a number crap. Hang in there, sun will be shining soon. On dreary days, turn on more lights when you're home, that seems to help me.

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7:22 AM, February 19, 2008 .. Posted by littleMissConfused
Laurie; Not to worry. The "one event" means the project is going to really happen. The "we" is me and hubby. I wish I could say more but I am just too superstitious. I wish I could talk about it. I think that is a big part of the way I am feeling.

Deejay: Thanks for the thoughts. I thought it was about time I get into the doctor. I have not had a 'girly' exam in 5 years. I know I am way over due. I just hate going in for them. At least this time I get a female doctor. It always felt a little creepy having some old guy poking around down south!

LadyV: Our clinic is so big I wouldn't even know where to go to make an appointment. I had to go online just to find a map of the building to figure out where to go now that the appointment was made.

Patty: I waited until the operator came on saying "If you would like to make a call please hang up and try again" Pushing 0 got me a voice that sounded like I was being scolded! It kept saying "sorry, that is an invalid selection". My poor dogs must have thought I was nuts...I was screaming at the phone that all I wanted to do was make a fu**ing appointment! I have calmed down and received an e-mail back....my appointment is over a month away!
I like your light idea. I have even thought about getting a "grow light" like the ones you put by plants to see if that will help. I really don't want to go back to taking pills for this type of depression. The last time i took them they made me feel like a zombie. I had no emotions at all!

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7:33 AM, February 19, 2008 .. Posted by drdog
Think the endless winter is getting to all of us here in the cold climes. I know I have had more than enough.

But how 'bout them Wilds, eh? Good for them. Maybe we'll have a Wild-Wings series in April. Imagine how the insults will be flying back and forth then!

Have the doctors' offices ever figured out how much stress and frustration those phone menus add to our lives? Rhetorical question No. 135.

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7:57 AM, February 19, 2008 .. Posted by littleMissConfused
I wonder how people like my in-laws make appointments.....they refuse to get the internet. They have a computer but are convinced that if they get the internet they will be hacked and financially ruined!

The WILD are doing great! 6 point lead on the other teams. We don't do well against the Red Wings....it would be a fun series...I don't think I would have any hair or fingernails left after it was over...I would either chew them off or rip them out watching!

tonight for a little stress release, hubby is going to put the TV out by the hot tub and we will watch the game out there.......yep! We gots us the hill billy version of one of them thar fancy tubs with the speakers and the TV built in it. We built a shelf on the deck the hot tub is on and wired it with a satellite hook up. All we have to do is bring the TV out and plug it in! Then we have a remote speaker that sits next to the tub so we can hear it over the bubbling jets!

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9:34 PM, February 20, 2008 .. Posted by slayerbarbie
I really do hope that your spirits rise soon. It's almost springtime. I'll pray that your new project works out. I'm getting kinda antsy waiting to find out what it is.....